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It's funny how time flies...
Thursday, August 5, 2010
I am a newb.
I just recently saw a few blogs of some friends and, I decided that it's time for me to let it all out. But by letting it all out, I might actually surprise myself in how much I've learned... both good and bad.
First of all I must start by saying that I have wonderful husband and son. I may only be 20 years old, but I can say that if I died, I'd die happy. We're in hard times right now, financially and emotionally, but I think I am blessed with the greatest family because we couldn't be where we are on our own. It's hard on us living with my parents. Justin was "laid off" from the air force so quickly that we didn't have enough time to plan. So that left us with few choices. When it came crunch time it was either move in to an apartment that we may or may not be able to afford in three months or live with my parents...
Just to let you know... I fought my husband on living with parents again. Literally. As much as I hated to admit it, he had a point... It would be the more fiscally responsible choice. And frankly as long as I knew that my son was safe and sound and taken care of, then I would be okay. Still, I did not want to move in with my parents. I felt like a failure. And not to mention what Justin felt like... He has never felt more defeated. How does someone get "laid off" from the freaking military?? I'll tell you... the government has no idea the mistake their making... Laying off 6,000 airmen... They'll regret it in no time. Either way, my parents were gracious enough to open their home to us.
And you know what? Everything has been great since we've been here. I don't think in my entire high school career that my mother and I have gone this long without having an argument. It's a blessing from God himself. But I could never be where my mother is now.
My sister has taken my nephew away from her and my father. For reasons that make no sense. There is no logic to my sister's thought process... I haven't talked to her since and no matter how long I contemplate on her and our history and why she would have done this.. I still can't figure it out. However, now more than ever, I believe that these things happen for a reason. God closes one door so one more may be opened. I hope my mother finds clarity and peace. I could never, no matter how much they pissed me off, take Jude away from Mom and Dad.They have done so much for us that it makes me sick to even think it.
Right now, Justin is literally busting his butt to find a career... and in the process find a second job to hold us over until we find that career. And hopefully I ca continue mine in due time but right now he is the focus. He will never know how proud I am of him. He's a wonderful dad. I couldn't have asked God for a better man. Even though he DRIVES ME CRAZY sometimes... but I guess that's what they're supposed to do. I am surrounded by so much good and blessing that once we find our own place and finally get settled in the real world that I will have learned and grown from this. And this will seem like a centimeter in time one day.
First of all I must start by saying that I have wonderful husband and son. I may only be 20 years old, but I can say that if I died, I'd die happy. We're in hard times right now, financially and emotionally, but I think I am blessed with the greatest family because we couldn't be where we are on our own. It's hard on us living with my parents. Justin was "laid off" from the air force so quickly that we didn't have enough time to plan. So that left us with few choices. When it came crunch time it was either move in to an apartment that we may or may not be able to afford in three months or live with my parents...
Just to let you know... I fought my husband on living with parents again. Literally. As much as I hated to admit it, he had a point... It would be the more fiscally responsible choice. And frankly as long as I knew that my son was safe and sound and taken care of, then I would be okay. Still, I did not want to move in with my parents. I felt like a failure. And not to mention what Justin felt like... He has never felt more defeated. How does someone get "laid off" from the freaking military?? I'll tell you... the government has no idea the mistake their making... Laying off 6,000 airmen... They'll regret it in no time. Either way, my parents were gracious enough to open their home to us.
And you know what? Everything has been great since we've been here. I don't think in my entire high school career that my mother and I have gone this long without having an argument. It's a blessing from God himself. But I could never be where my mother is now.
My sister has taken my nephew away from her and my father. For reasons that make no sense. There is no logic to my sister's thought process... I haven't talked to her since and no matter how long I contemplate on her and our history and why she would have done this.. I still can't figure it out. However, now more than ever, I believe that these things happen for a reason. God closes one door so one more may be opened. I hope my mother finds clarity and peace. I could never, no matter how much they pissed me off, take Jude away from Mom and Dad.They have done so much for us that it makes me sick to even think it.
Right now, Justin is literally busting his butt to find a career... and in the process find a second job to hold us over until we find that career. And hopefully I ca continue mine in due time but right now he is the focus. He will never know how proud I am of him. He's a wonderful dad. I couldn't have asked God for a better man. Even though he DRIVES ME CRAZY sometimes... but I guess that's what they're supposed to do. I am surrounded by so much good and blessing that once we find our own place and finally get settled in the real world that I will have learned and grown from this. And this will seem like a centimeter in time one day.
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